Alone, Not Lonely. Maybe |

As I write my musings, I like to have music playing.
Today I listen to Daniel Caesar & Koffee on Cyanide Remix.
Play it as you read. Maybe you’ll feel something close to what I feel in this moment.

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There are times I feel like I just want to be alone.
This feeling is loudest when I have someone in my life romantically.

It’s normally an interesting contrast to the feeling of
being lonely I constantly feel on a day to day basis.

I feel like a hypocrite A LOT. I preach that one needs to
be okay with being by themselves yet, I am always trying to
fill this void I feel anytime I feel ever so slightly lonely.

I crave attention. When I get it I crave being alone.
When I get it, I get lonely and crave the attention.
Round and round I go.

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“Yuh lovin’ baby girl, you know mi need it, need it
Let me fight for it, mi achieve it, ‘chieve it”